Time To Give Thanks

So Thanksgiving is right around the corner. Days are ticking away until the parade. People going crazy in the grocery stores. All the usual things that happen around this time of year were people both are extremely nice and horrible at the same time. This year Thanksgiving is going to be at my house . . . with BOTH sides of the family . . . can you say excited! Because that is what I am. I know there will be drama . . . and bitter feelings flying, but it’s something I am really looking forward to this year . . well not those negative parts, but the family coming together as one. My son will be 10 months old on Thanksgiving. It will be one amazing day for sure!! The house at this point in time looks like a picture you’d see from a Tornado aftermath. Everything is places where they don’t belong and piles of junk everywhere. Slowly I am working my way through the mess trying to make this place as presentable as possible! With in laws and family coming over it needs to be the best I can make it!! I have not had mastitis or cellulitis is almost 3 months! It’s so far my record of being healthy after having Kaleb! It’s been one nightmare of a year. I guess that is why I am so happy to be celebrating such a joyful holiday with everyone! I look forward to making the dinner and having everyone enjoy it. Watching the families mingle and watch the football game (or nap). I’ve been watching for this day since I was a little girl. Being a Mommy in my own house and having everyone here . . with me. Lets hope and pray I don’t have a horrific story to tell next week!!!

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Facebook Break

So as many Americans have done before me . . . and I as well have done before . . . I am taking a break from Facebook. My son is 7 months old now learning to crawl and walk. And I don’t want to miss a second of it because I am reading some persons personal life drama. Though I love facebook for the main fact I can show off my son and write out my thoughts. I figured this blog will do nicely to help me with both.

Facebook is a wonderful tool to help connect with those whom you’d have no other way of getting in contact with. It’s useful for so many things . . Yet it’s such a distraction from the rest of the world. My sister not to recently deleted her account and says life has been better for it. I’m not sure if I can go THAT far seeing as my “whole life” is documented on Facebook. From dating my husband, to our wedding, first home, finding out I was pregnant, all the way to the birth and growth of our son. Maybe one day I will be brave enough to leave this imaginary gang and not worry about losing my “life”, but as of now I welcome the break.

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Reminiscing

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This weekend a childhood friend of mine got married. The Pastor said to the guests ‘If you are married take this time during the vows to renew yours with your spouse’ As my husband and I looked into each others eyes . . . holding our son . . . repeating the words we said nearly 4 years ago . . . it amazed me how much we’ve changed in many ways. And it was refreshing to promise him all over again that no matter what . . . we’ll make it through.

Copyrights Exposure by Laura See

“Look how my ring encompasseth thy finger, Even so thy breast encloseth my poor heart Wear both of them, for both of them are thine” William Shakespeare.

Such a beautiful quote. I love it dearly.

Not only do I love my husband, but I am more in love with him now than the day I married him.

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Time For An Update!

Soooo! It’s been a very long time since I have posted anything!! Let me fill you in!! I had my beautiful baby *BOY* Kaleb Jason was born on January 24th at 3:54pm he was 7 pounds 6 ounces and 20 inches long. A picture perfect baby and delivery. I and still amazed when I look at him.

It’s been a roller coaster ride ever since . . . I have been hit with what is called “Mastitis” or aka a breast infection . . not once . . not twice . . but three times so far. . . Once I was hospitalized for it. It was 6 days after I had Kaleb I got the chills a 102.5 fever . . it wasn’t fun. I go to the ER I was there for 10 hours . . I had to be catheterized, given a vag exam, put on an IV, I had to get an x-ray, blood work, and then I was admitted to the hospital because at the time they had no idea what was wrong with me. After tons of tears, meds, and interrupted sleep I was finally sent home. Few weeks later I get it again . . . I was able to be on out patient meds and it seemed to work great . . . and here we are again . . . 3rd time around with this horrible thing. Not sure what else I can do to prevent it . . I nurse, pump, compress, take hot hot showers, massage, keep clean nursing pads on, and rest as much as possible. I can’t wait to get rid of this thing and not be sick any more!

Other than that . . . I LOVE motherhood . . . it is everything I thought it would be and more! Kaleb is such a great baby . . . he eats good, sleeps good, and is full of love and laughter. There is not a day I look at him and don’t want to cry. My heart breaks over how selfish I was while I was pregnant for not wanting a boy . . . and being overly upset/depressed at thinking it could be. This boy has made my heart grow by leaps and bounds. While I was in the middle of pushing I look down and I see my baby and in my heart I knew it was my son and I was over joyed. I fell in love with him the absolute second I saw him. To think of my life without him makes me sad . . . he has brought a new level of happiness and love to my heart. Each giggle is worth the random sleepless nights . . . the poopy diapers . . . and getting peed on.

Now lets do a picture time line from one of my last pictures pregnant up until now.

A pregnancy shot, a right after birth shot, and a 2 month shot.

Thinking.

Excuse the childish ponderings of today.

I was looking at some old pictures I have posted on both Facebook and oddly enough Myspace. lol. One thing I noticed that made me both happy and sad was my constant change of “best friends” Over the years I’ve had many ‘best friends’ most who are not really not a part of my life anymore. They were there for a season to help me become who I am today and then I changed . . . they changed . . . or they went crazy. Needless to say since my last fall out I have yet to get a person like that back. Someone to call up on a moments notice and just go shopping or grab coffee. Someone who understands your quirks and doesn’t get upset when they interfere with something. I truly miss hanging out one and one and just talking about anything. It’s a companionship I long for, but to overwhelmed to go find it. I’ve tried hanging out with other people, but it seems like most of the people I draw in are ones with problems and I end up listening to drama filled stories after drama filled stories to give unheeded advice to then hear about how everything is falling apart still. With any and all of my ‘best friends’ there was never this problem . . . not that they wouldn’t have a hard day or week and need to vent, but it wasn’t like their life was plotted out by the writers of Gossip Girl. And that everyone hated them or someone was purposely being mean. I miss having a person on the same level as me . . . many times when I am having a hard day I go to my friends and I get back lashed for it. ‘You’re a strong person. I can’t believe you’re letting *this* get to you’ or ‘ You have no room to talk. So one thing goes wrong in your life . . . look at mine . . . ‘ I feel like I have no one to confide in. . . which isn’t the truth . . . I have an amazing husband who would listen to the same story a million times and have a different reactions each time as if it was new information. He’s wonderful in that way, but there is nothing like a close girl friend to help you get by. Who will sit and watch Sleepless in Seattle while eating Chocolate Chunk Ice Cream in fuzzy slippers with you.

Maybe what it really is . . . is that I miss being a teenager (which was so long ago for me right). Who really knows. Just looking at these old pictures and remembering everything made me look at my life, which is so full of blessings and new adventures, and see that a teeny-tiny piece is missing. And to be very honest I am both ok and upset with that. I don’t need a best friend to get through life. . . . but I want one.

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Eh.

So I don’t understand why so many people have a weird outlook on pregnancy. As you know I am nearing my due date and I’m still in a really good mood. And people are saying that because I’m not uncomfortable and still smiling I’m going to go past my due date . . . . why do I have to be miserable to be ready to have my baby? Or when I talk about having Braxton Hicks Contractions everyone tells me to ‘just wait for the real ones’ I’m not saying these are horrible things . . . or I can’t stand how I feel when they happen. I understand that BHCs are just the bodies way of preparing you for the real deal. . . but I know they only get worse . . . other wise no one would get an epidural. I just hate when people are downers. I’m in a good mood because I don’t allow things to get me down . . . I’m not going to be pregnant forever . . . so the getting up every hour to pee during the night, sore hips & boobs, and puffyness will all go away. I’m not focusing on the negative. . . . my eyes are fixed on the end results. MY BABY! I’ve waited for this for a long time and I’m not going to let temporary annoyances get the better of me.

“Proverbs 15:13 A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.”

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15 days <3

I’m almost 38 weeks pregnant and super duper excited!!

Picture Update Time!

26 weeks and 3 days!

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Lily Rose – 2 month old pictures.

Anniversary, Birthday, and Photos! Oh My!

These first couple weeks in October have been packed full of crazyness! October 5th was my 3 year anniversary with my hubby, October 12th was my 22nd birthday, and today I had a photoshoot for my friend Sabine of her daughter Lily. All very exciting!! I can’t wait to post pictures of my belly and of Lily!! It’s kind of late to attempt to do so now. Anyway. . . . I am now 26 weeks pregnant! I am so excited and feel so blessed with every kick and punch!! Every night we read to the baby . . . right now it’s “The Hobbit” and everytime Jason starts reading the baby kicks like crazy the entire time and when the story is over . . the baby goes to sleep. It’s sooo cute! Lately when I lay down on my back you can see my belly move where the baby is at . . you can actually see each kick/punch! It’s . . . . amazing. Something I guess I never thought I’d see. It’s been over all one of the best experiences I have ever had . . . I am looking forward to as the baby grows the movements getting stronger!! I think my favorite feeling at this moment is when the baby gets the hiccups!! Best ever . . it scared me at first when I first felt them . . I didn’t know what they were . . and after a few moments I picked up on the rhythmic pattern and knew it was hiccups! So amazing! Well . . . I am done with my baby rant. Pictures of the belly and Lily will be up soon! Keep and eye out!

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My Baby Love

I’m 24 weeks today!!

It’s finally here . . . the bump has arrived! Though some days it sticks out farther than others, but I was able to get this pretty neat shot of my belly! I’m excited for it to keep growing and getting bigger!! My Drs appointments have been going well . . everything seems to be on track and the baby is growing like crazy! It’s moving and thumping all over the place now. It brings such a peace to my heart when I feel the baby move . . it helps me know everything is still ok. My baby shower is Nov 6th . . . and I getting super excited about it . . . I pray I have a cute bump for the shower . . . I have a beautiful dress I need to fill out for it! lol. There has been so much happening lately it’s not even funny, but I thought I would just drop by . . . and show off my bump-dee-bump! yay!

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